What if you feel like a failure, confused, and nothing you do is ever good?
What will you do in that situation?
especially when you’re 28 yrs old, and you’re still living with your parents, now still jobless (funnily because of your own stubborn idealism of getting out from the 7-years work you hate), still single (where you’re traditionally expected to already got married at 26, and now already have a baby), and constantly getting nagged and asked and even looked with a clear disappointment look on their faces.
And nothing seems working.
Also, today mainstream society seems to prefer those “alpha-type” people that are usually aggressive, money/business-minded, workaholic, firm and quick in making decisions, ruthless, and of course being super-competitive and driven.
While I’m more about being super-creative, imaginative, unconventional, spontaneous, adventurous, fun loving, freedom-seeker, people-oriented, very Purpose (or should I say “philosophical”) driven, and always love more ‘deeper’ meaningful things.
But my parents they don’t seem to appreciate all these traits, even probably view ‘em as weaknesses and that I need to change and grow up.
Also, I just sometimes hate all about mainstream society’s notions.
I always yearn for Love, Peace and Beauty,
but it always kills me whenever today I see people can become so cold, ‘dry’, soulless, and even damn ruthless (in the name of being “competitive”) like animals because they’ll do anything for the sake of Money.
My utmost passion always lies in music, but at age 28, and due to listening to my very pragmatist and money-oriented dad, sometimes I wonder if it’s really already too late, and if it’s time to just give up my utmost dream, and time to get a “real job” and “join the Real crowd or society”.
I’m just clueless and feels like Life is just a heavy burden I have to damn repeat every day, meaninglessly.
I feel like a failure, and nothing I’m doing is ever good.
I feel stuck and even depressed and suicidal sometimes because of this nagging reality.
Can anybody relate with me? or perhaps have some good practical advices? I would really appreciate it very much.
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