As far as peoples' opinions of you, what is more frightening/threatening to you: rejection or indifference?
We all say we don’t care what people think of us, but I feel this is probably untrue in most folks. (Usually, when people talk a lot about being proud, there is not a lot to back it up – it’s their actions that count.) I have a severe fear of performing in front of people that has kept me from doing things that I might be good at and could have a lot of fun doing (i.e., singing or reading my poetry or stand-up comedy), and I think it is because I am afraid of both of these reactions. But I am not sure which is worse…indifference would mean that they don’t even care enough to hate me…but rejection is very hard to get over, and can impede me from going forward and trying again.
Then again, I think a lot of this is just my mind f@*#ing with me, and is completely illusory. So what are some of your opinions on which is more brutal, and how do you handle these fears?