Do you feel the need to explain yourself?

Because I am not “normal” meaning I either function very well at times, then at other times I literally cannot function, I am finding more and more I am having to explain myself. Its beginning to become tiring and I am getting this feeling again, like last year, that I want to hermitlike myself, and give life a miss. It’s just too much dammed hard work and too much explaining. (I am depressed and have bipolar).

An example would be where were you for two days? Well I was so down I couldn’t get out of bed, but really? Do I need to say this to people? I really am trying to get out there and be with people and no I don’t have funds for a psychiatrist at the moment.