When did you lose faith in your faith?

I always considered myself a christian. I found prayer helpful, but lately either God has gone deaf or he can’t stand me. Because horrible new things happen daily. Did you ever lose faith in what you believed in. What did you do then, find and search for something new. And did this bring a new spiritual freedom and enlightenment. * I realize all the question marks are missing. I can’t find them on my symbols on blackberry so apologies.