Do you ever really stop searching for something more?
I’m not sure how to put this, but I’ll try to make it understandable.
I can only speak for myself here, since it’s the only person I have ever tried being, but when I look around at people I get a feeling that it’s the same for them. I’m constantly searching for something more. More of me, more of life, more of joy. I search for the deeper mening, who I am, what I’m supposed to do, where to go. Searching for more happiness.
So a week ago, when I was out at night, I felt like I realized something. That everybody’s searching for something more, the deeper meaning, who they are. But do we ever really find it and stop the search? Is life more than just a walk towards something? That night I had a strange feeling. I felt like I realized life. I realized there is nothing more, but in a way, it’s okay. I felt like the only thing you can do is to just go along. I’m thinking about my future often, what I want to do, how it will be better. But I have a feeling that life will be just as it is, forever. Of course new things will happen, I’ll go new places, but the state of life will be the same.
And that night I felt that I realized we all want the same thing, we’re all searching for the same thing, we’re just doing the same thing differently.
Alright, I don’t know if I make any sense here. I guess my question is:
Does this ever change? Do you know what I’m saying, do you feel the same way?