What if you're 40 and you're still not socially accepted?

I am a 40 year old black woman who was bullied as a child because I spoke properly and hung around white people. I wasn’t socially accepted by other black kids and I wasn’t socially accepted by the white kids either. I was labeled a zebra and called terrible other names by the black kids. I was different. I felt different and I was an outcast. I’m from Iowa and grew up in the 70’s, so it made it even worse.

I find I am still facing these same issues even to this day! I don’t fit in, anywhere. I’ve since moved from Iowa and down to Texas. Black people know as soon as I open my mouth that I am different, and white people seem to think or act intimidated by me. I just can’t take it anymore! I have hardly any friends because of this!! It has made me dislike my own race because I’m not accepted!