Is this what they mean by young and restless?
I think I have identified that source of my issues. Every day we see stories, whether fact or fiction, of people that had to fight. Fight for freedom, love, respect, or just because someone had to step up to face a challange. Having very few friends, a love life that has been nothing but painful, a degree I’m not using, and a job that came with an expiration date, I feel like I would be a great candidate for such an adventure. I mean, it’s not like anyone is really going to miss me if I screw up.
I’m not writing this to be dramatic or to fish for sympathy here. It’s just how I feel.
On to the question. What can I do to satisfy this? I have strength some people would love to have, both physically and mentally. I just don’t have anything to fight for. Am I really supposed to wait in a pergatory like state until something comes my way? And if waiting for things is what I must do, how can I fight this feeling of wasting away into nothing?