Should I cheat on my boyfriend?

I have been together with my current partner for about 8 months. He is 37 and I am 22. I met him on a sugar daddy site. Although it started as an “arrangement” we soon became exclusive and fell in love. Yes I am being serious. In a month we are moving in together. During the 8 months he has helped me a lot.

He has:

* Given me thousands of dollars to pay for rent, food, shopping, and he will start paying for my therapy.
* We are moving into a 3 bedroom condo and I won’t have to pay rent, and I’ll my own room which he agreed can be my closet.
* He’s stuck by me through all my mood swings and issues.
*He knows I used to be an escort, and has accepted it and still loves me.
* He’s serious about me and has told his friends, family, and co workers.

So he has done A LOT for me. In fact, a lot does not do justice. He has pretty much provided for me like no other. Not only financially but as well as emotionally.

There’s a guy (same age as me!) whom I have had feelings for a very, very long time….. I can relate to him because he is my age and we fell in love in school. He has recently came back into my life and I feel happy but sad also because now is not the right time I can “be with” him….

I feel like it is lust and passion.

I have been wondering for a long time what happened between us. I sometimes think of him when I masturbate- and not my current boyfriend.. Sometimes when I’m having sex with my boyfriend I think of my ex….

Should I meet my ex once again to see what will happen? Or should I stay with my boyfriend and not do anything? My boyfriend can not know that I cheated on him.

I have guilt because I do love my boyfriend and he has done so much for me…. If he found out it would crush him.

But the selfish side of me has very strong lust and desires to see my old flame.

In a way I think I can meet my ex and get away with it, I am having internal conflict about this.

HELP.