Is my relationship conundrum exacerbated by having Bipolar/Manic Depressive Illness (see the details...)
So, I met a guy. Wonderful, right!? Not quite.
It’s only been a month, and I’ve been getting quite temperamental. If he doesn’t call for a day, I start to get edgy and aggravated. My mind fills with negative images. I feel like I’m in crisis mode. Then, when we talk, I feel better. Yet, as the day stretches, and I still haven’t heard from him, I feel a distinct change in mood, and I have to force positive thoughts in my head: “he’s busy at work; he’s looking after his Mother; or, God forbid, he has plans. ”
I’m generally not a clingy person – if anything I need my own space. To add to this, if he was calling/texting too much, I’d feel oppressed.
So this is the problem: I’m a grown man: mature, and generally pretty grounded.
I think it’s the Bipolar, which has been manifesting in a more pronounced manner these past couple of months. So, Jellies – I guess my question is, is this normal? I only see it getting worse as time goes by – if I’m this invested now, what will happen if/when it really gets serious?
This question isn’t specifically for the Bipolar Jellies; maybe I am just “heads-over-heels” and really adore him? No offense to the any histrionic teenagers that may be reading this, but it makes me feel young and hormone-y. Am I in the danger-zone? Should I just call it quits…?