Do you have any emotional triggers that you know of?
At group last night I was telling folks about my struggles with Quicken, trying to get my accounts to match up right. I realized that the problem I was working with had started when the bank changed things just before I got sick. Then, when I had to reconcile the problem, I couldn’t face it, because I was not in mental shape to handle it.
I’m usually pretty organized. I have files for everything, and I can lay my hands on anything pretty quickly. You can ask me any question about my financial life, and I can answer it instantly. But for five years, that all went away. My desks at home and work piled up with papers that were left unfiled for years. I couldn’t do my taxes without my wife standing there at my side the whole time. She didn’t have to do anything. I just couldn’t look at the computer screen or any of the papers alone. Couldn’t do it.
So finally, I was fixing the mess. Five years later, I was together enough to do that, and all of a sudden I was very emotional, because I realized this mess was caused by me getting sick. That is what happened five years ago. I was in bad shape.
So another person in the group said this was a trigger point for me. This issue triggered all these memories and feelings. And that’s why I’ve been obsessing about fixing the accounts for the last couple of weeks. I’m cleaning up my old, old messes.
It’s pretty wierd.
Do you have and trigger points?