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I had two recurring dreams that three individuals in my personal life don’t want to talk to me, one of them in my dream mentioned that she had talked to her friend about me and responded that my head isn’t screwed on straight. It’s very troubling to have dreams like these due to the fact that at least I can say that with one of the individuals I do care for. The other two, I feel in the very least I can maintain a cordial friendship with however I do not want them to hate me or think that I’m different. I know that I have unresolved issues in my life and I am currently resolving them, it is going to take alot of time and I’m prepared for it but I don’t want these individuals to make it difficult for me to do so by not speaking to me.
To bring some additional insight, after high school was completed, I didn’t maintain contact with ⅔, because I felt that they have resentment toward me being absent while were attending. The reason for my absence was because I felt different, didn’t feel I can hang out with them because of how I felt about myself. The third friend, we stayed in contact on and off, except when I returned to school, the connection ceased. While I was attending school, she had contacted me to help her with a personal situation that she got involved with and I wasn’t able to be there because I was wrapped with school. Had an disagreement with her because of it and couple weeks after I attempted to make peace, except the messages I was sending was unresponsive. This year, we resumed contact with each other, but now because of the dreams I’ve been having I fear that I will lose that friendship again and it’s the one friendship I feel in my life that is the most potent.