What are the biggest "suitcases" you carry from your childhood?

In other words, what’s your emotional baggage? Mine is a craving for safety which is unrealistic as I have recently learned and a desire to be attached to one other which may or may not happen. Because of a brother who died young, a family member who abused me and a narcissistic unpredictable mother, I am sensitive to feelings of abandonment. I used to have poor self-esteem but that is something I am overcoming. What about you? What holds you back potentially from commitment and intimacy – or just contentment?