Would this still be considered rape (possibly NSFW)

So I know this is a difficult question to answer because everyone has a different definition of rape, but I’m just confused and looking for a little peace of mind here. So I was with this guy that I knew really well, we weren’t technically dating since I’d said previously that I wasn’t ready for a “real” relationship, but we were sexually active. The first time I went over to his house with the intention of losing my virginity it was consensual on both parts. But when I went back, knowing full well that it would happen again, I didn’t want to do it. I didn’t feel good about it, I knew he didn’t love me like I love him and I was kind of scared. But I didn’t say anything. I didn’t say yes, and I didn’t verbally say no. We had sex about 13 or 14 times over the course of our “relationship” and about half the times I was really into it but the other half I didn’t want it and I never said yes. Sometimes I would try and stop him from taking my clothes off but would eventually give in, other times I would just lay there and not say or do anything at all. Now I know that since I didn’t SAY no that it’s technically my fault, but would it still be considered rape? Especially since we had consensual sex in between? I don’t know if that made any sense but I just want to get this off my mind. (P.S. All this started in November of last year and ended in February of this year, I was 17 at the time and he was 20. Don’t know if any of that matters but I thought I’d stick it in there just in case.)