I always feel depressed and think life has no meaning anymore...just want to die sometimes?

as i have faced many hardships in my childhood ; it realy brought a drastic change in me. i dont feel like doin anything.i am just sick of my life. i have many goals in life to achieve..and i am trying to except what i’ve gone through..but sometimes i wonder’’ will it effect my education or my goals’‘when i think about this i feel like life has no meaning and i am just trying to run from it.