Am I trying to keep her alive and well? (See details, of course)

My mother passed away in 1998 from heart and lung cancer. My mom and I were pretty close. When she died I cried, but very little. I’m always dreaming about her and in these dreams she is ‘always’ alive. Now mind you, everything I’m about to tell you is from dreams! She’s living in Louisiana still and that’s why we never see her. She is in remission, but not in the best of health so she can’t travel, my step-father and she divorced, that’s why he’s in Florida. In these dreams we are always getting cards and little gifts from her. My husband says (in reality) that I’m trying to keep her alive and using the dream excuses to comfort me. Does this make sense to anyone? Is this why I still don’t cry when I visit her grave site? I hope it doesn’t sound too childish, but…your opinions mean a lot to me right now, because you are unbiased! Thank you!