Why can't I meet a decent sane woman?

Lately, I’ve been meeting some clucks. Of course they never really seem that way at first, but if they had seemed that way, I wouldn’t be asking this question now would I?

Funny thing is, lately isn’t not even people I’m seeing / dating. It’s friends (that are female) and ex’s too. This got me thinking about past relationships and past friends that were female.

After thinking about this all night at work, I’ve come to the conclusion that just about every female I’ve known (flutheries aside, cuz I don’t really know any of you ~peers around the room~) seems like they had it out for me. I’ve never had a relationship that went smoothly. Smoothly being: Not having asinine arguments or being cheated on or just straight up lies beyond the lines of being able to trust that person again.

There’s only been a handful of female friends that didn’t try stabbing me in the back. None of which I would’ve ever dated, because I just didn’t seem that way.

I know that I probably have abandonment issues from my mother not having any contact with me from the ages 9–20, but this barrage of crazy women isn’t helping my faith in females. Also, why do I seem to attract the crazy ones that feel like I’m a good target for pain? I’m started to build walls and become the guy that never wants anything more than sex. I don’t want to be that guy, but it’s not like I’m handed much of a choice, right?

Do I subconsciously think I really want to date someone that wants to hurt me?