How do you stop mourning for the cards you weren't dealt?
There are certain things that just make me sad when I hear or see them – things that remind me of things that I’ll never have. For example, my close friend has awesome parents. Her mom calls her every day just to chat, her dad’s always driving up (five hours!) to fix things around her house, they are the most indulgent grandparents ever…
I’ll never have that. And when I think about it, it makes me really stupidly jealous. It seems selfish, and I sort of hate myself for thinking that way, but I can’t help it. I am so happy that she has this great family… but I have to wonder why I didn’t get that too.