Would you go to a treatment center?

Asked by ducky_dnl (5384) December 29th, 2010 from iPhone

Okay, I am very embarrassed to be asking this question. A few weeks ago I was hospitalized for chest pains. The doctors found nothing wrong with my heart, but said I have anorexia and if I continue I’m on my way to a heart attack. They brought in a person from case management (I was on a military hospital) who referred me to a treatment center. I agreed to go until I found out it was an inpatient treatment center. I skipped my consultation after I found that out. Anyway, I’ve been trying to fix this disease on my own, but I haven’t even gained one pound. I think I went up a few ounces though. I’ve been noticing that I chew my food for 5–10 minutes before swallowing. I didn’t do that until about 9 days ago. I’m worrying 24/7 about the dumbest stuff (ex. What if I don’t sleep tonight and then I don’t sleep the next day and I die?). I’ve been thinking lately that I can’t fix this problem on my own, but I don’t want to be in a treatment center for a minimum of 30 days. I know it’s probably my depression and anxiety causing this, but I can’t really help it. It’s involuntary. I actually feel depressed asking this stupid question.

I actually took a picture today of my arm and was shocked to see the photo. To me, I look very healthy.

Here’s my arm: http://i557.photobucket.com/albums/ss12/Ducky_016/c3bf1b35.jpg

Suggestions people?