What do you do when your heart hurts?

I’m not depressed, but I’m so so sad.
Situations in life have not yet determined the future of my family, but the not-knowing is killing me. I just wish it was over and done with.

What can you do for yourself when you just feel helpless, and are having trouble living in the now?

I’m just really lost, and really sad. I don’t want to lose it in front of the kids, but it’s hard to be normal. I’m in robot mode and I don’t think it’s fair to the children :(
I’m not asking for medical advice and “go see a therapist” is not an option…no health insurance for at least another month.