Can you learn to see yourself as beautiful?

I’ve never felt very attractive. I don’t understand why. I have modeled for several agencies. Men are flirting with me constantly. People tell me I am beautiful or hot all of the time but I don’t think I am seeing what they see. I genuinely don’t. I don’t bring it up because I don’t want people to start jumping on the compliments to make me feel better, so I tend to stay quiet with this. It’s mainly my weight that bugs me.

I’m 5’5 and I usually weigh between 110–115 pounds. I go to the doctor and am told I am about 15–20 pounds underweight, yet I still pick myself apart and find things here and there that I don’t like. When I look at my body, I see myself as fat or disproportional. I’ve finally looked at the problem in depth and I am confused as to why I see myself as such.

By looking at the numbers, it would make no sense. Technically, I am thin but when I look in the mirror I see this awful misshapen body and it seems like all of my parts belong to different people and they were just thrown together.

Has anyone experienced and conquered a problem like this? Are you currently trying to see yourself in a new light? How do you go about feeling better about yourself?