Have you ever wanted to say "screw it" about your medications?

I have been manic since last Monday. Yesterday my psych told me to up one of my meds as a rescue program. I’m not taking the full dosage he wants me to because that means sleeping throughout the day and into the night. And I still feel the energy and everything that comes with a mania. So annoyed.

Thus my question. Have you ever had to be on medications that are supposed to help but you feel no benefit so therefore you want to cast them out? I want to go to my restroom and just chuck every single stupid mental health medication. Why take a mood stabilizer and then still swing ect…

Do you not chuck your meds because you think about your family and friends?

Going to stop now because I will keep rambling. :-)
Thanks