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I am 30, jobless, unemployed, and still living with parents, despite all my potential. Is there still hope, or not?

Asked by niki (714points) March 21st, 2011

Many people have often told me that I’m actually quite a smart person, even creative, imaginative (and artistic) and some have said highly intelligent “beyond the norm/normal”.

But unfortunately, it seems that I bring along the ‘curse’ of very weak in terms of thinking and doing practical things in life, nor I even have much interest in it (I am very much more into theory, philosophy, spirituality, and seeing the ‘big picture’ as opposed as working on the details/forest. I hate details!).

The worst thing is perhaps of how I dislike, even hate Money (and Money system) so much.
Most people don’t care about discussing it, they just simply said “that’s the way it is”, and sometimes I am so jealous of their “Ignorance is bliss” attitude, whereas I kept thinking about all the ‘injustices’ this Money System does almost every single day.

But my point is this: I am basically now sort of feeling damn lost and confused as:

1. if I do still have Hope for the future? in other words, can i still get a “second chance” to fix everything in my life (due to my ‘cursed’ personality), or it’s too late?

2. what do I have to do (or start from)?? I have always been a highly artistic, creative, and imaginative person.

In fact, I am a musician/songwriter/composer, but the thing is: I am a very idealistic kind of musician, and I don’t like to ‘lower’ myself down to just “write a HIT song” that is cheap, low in messages. I always want to create music that can be at Best Inspiring, touching many hearts out there; but unfortunately, that’s not what the Music Industry now wants nowadays. and thus, I am still jobless now.

And since I like mostly NON-practical fields such as philosophy, psychology, spirituality, even astronomy, whereas everybody around me keep doing and pushing me to do business, business & only business (“to make most money, duh!”) while I hate it so much,.so now I’m still entrapped and feeling lost confused don’t know what to do.

Please help,.what should I really do?
sometimes I can feel so damn hopeless and feel like I’m truly an alien that don’t belong in this so-called “real world”.

one more thing, I love nature, and animals. but sometimes (or often) I just hate humans, especially seeing how so many of them can be downright greedy, selfish, and have NO concern for their fellow humans, and also Mother Earth. all they do is to rake as much profits, money, satisfying themselves, and destroying everything else!

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