There's a gap in my emotions. Am I missing love?

Here’s the thing. For a few months now, I’ve been feeling kinda, bad. It’s not as bad as it could be, but it’s not enjoyable. Now, what makes no sense to me is, things are great! Great everywhere. There are no problems in my life. I have everything I could ever wish fore. [material/emotional wise]

Yet. There is a gap I can’t close. The gap kinda opened when I was in love [still kinda am] with girl from my class, however, I’m in her friend zone, so, making a move would only make things worse.

Is it, love, that I’m missing? On one hand, it could be, but on the other, I doubt it would be something so, ’‘absurd’’. For me, it’s the classic story. [I’m her best friend, we love being around each other, but she wants to have a separate dude for a boyfriend and a separate one for intellectual conversations and what not which we have on a daily basis. Alone. Every night.]

It keeps me up at night. There was this, rough period in the end of 2010, when the whole love thing was at it’s roughest, which led to some serious depression, failure at school etc.

From the beginning of 2011, I broke lose of those ’‘chains’’, and this is honestly one of the best beginnings of the year I can remember. Just, something, a small thing that pokes my brain day and night is missing.