What can I do about my addiction to fear?

I just realized that I’m addicted to making people fearful and making people do things out of fear. I mean I always knew that, but I never knew how far I had gone or how evil it is. I never realized that it was because I myself am in fear. In fear of being alone my whole life, and fearful that no one can ever love me and I can never be capable of love. Anyway I am fully addicted. I love the look in their eyes. That look of fear and hopelessness with a hint of sadness. I love when they’re so scared that they don’t even consider saying anything to anyone. I love having all strings tying them up rendering them emotionally incapable of protecting themselves. I just love it and can’t help it. I love getting into small fun joking fights with my friends and then escalating it until I have my hand raised to their face and they look at me like how could you ever think about hitting me like that? I love the feeling of power and control over them, but I’m not proud. I’d rather have people listen to me because they want to. Not out of force. I’d rather just forget that pitiful look in their eyes. The thing is though I don’t know how to behave. I don’t know how to get a person to be my friend, a real friend. I also don’t know how to give up the addiction. I need support. I need someone who had this addiction. I need someone to help me and give me tips to give it up. Can someone please help me?