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I figured out that I'm bi, and now have a girlfriend, but what do I do? (NSFW)

Asked by elaina28 (110points) June 25th, 2011

Okay, so I’m 17, and recently, I’ve been really confused about some things… I have this friend, Melanie, and she’s 18. We’ve been friends for about a year and a half now. Melanie is bisexual, and I’ve always thought that I was straight, and although she’s always respected that I was straight, she’s always sort of harmlessly, playfully flirted with me, and I’ve flirted back, as it’s always been in a joking sort of tone. However, I have always thought that she was gorgeous. She’s much shorter than me; very petite with short hair and the most adorable smile. She’s always so happy, and she makes me feel better whenever I’m down. Well, in the past, I’ve only had two boyfriends, neither being very serious, and I’ve only been with one guy, sexually. Well, I’ve never had a serious attraction to another girl before, but recently, I realized that I’ve had this growing attraction to Melanie. Whenever she smiles, I melt, and she’s all that I think about… I’ve even fantasized about her when I get myself off. However, since I’ve never felt like this about a girl before, I’ve tried to deny it, and act normally around her.

The other night, I was at Melanie’s house, and her parents and her brother were out, so we were alone. We were in her room, changing into our bathing suits to go swimming, and I might’ve looked in her direction when she was changing once or twice… My breath got caught in my throat, because I was so attracted to her in that moment. Once she had just finished putting her bikini top on, I took a deep breath and I told her that I wanted to talk to her about something. She was really interested in what I had to say, and we sat on her bed and I told that I think I’m bi, and I asked her how she realized that she was bi. She told me that she had realized she was bi when she developed really strong feelings for this one girl, and asked me if I had strong feelings for any girl in particular. I told her yes, and she spent about 5 minutes trying to get me to tell her who before I admitted that it was her. She looked surprised, and then smiled at me, and pulled me towards her and kissed me. It was by far the best kiss I’ve ever gotten. She pulled me onto her, and we made out for a good twenty minutes before she started pulling my bikini top off. I was extremely nervous, since I’ve never experimented with (let alone even kissed) a girl before, but she was really sweet and made me feel comfortable with everything. I followed her lead, though, and started pulling off her top as well. We stood up and she took off my bikini bottom as well as hers, and sat down on her bed, signalling for me to sit down in front of her. Well, she started kissing my neck and ended up fingering me and going down on me. It was amazing, and afterwards, she asked me, “So you still think you’re bi?” and I told her, “Definitely.” So she smiled, and asked me “So then, if you’re definitely still bi, and you’re definitely attracted to me, would you want to go out with me?” I told her yes, but there’s a few problems.

My mom has no idea that this happened, and thinks I’m straight. What should I do? How am I supposed to tell her that I’m bi, AND I now have a girlfriend? She’s not the most accepting of these kinds of things, and I’m afraid she’ll treat me differently. Also, how do I tell all of my friends and everyone about this? I can’t really keep having a girlfriend a secret from them, but I don’t want them to treat me differently. And about the whole sex thing… I’m really nervous, still, because the first time it happened, Melanie sort of did all the work, but obviously, next time, I’ll have to do some of the work, too, and since I’ve never been with a girl sexually, I have no idea how to pleasure her… What do I do? I don’t want to completely suck at it and disappoint her, but I have no clue what to do… Advice?!

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WillWorkForChocolate's avatar

Wow. Did I click to visit Literotica.com by mistake?

Ummm… without going into a lot of detail <ahem> you should do what feels “right” to you.

marinelife's avatar

OK, just take your time. Discovering you are bi does not mean telling everyone around you, especially your mother.

Just meet Melanie somewhere other than your house and call her “Mel” when you talk about her to your mom before you are ready to tell your Mom.

Your sexuality is your private business. Remember that.

As for being with Melanie sexually, you will figure that out. Just touch her the way that you like to be touched and see how she responds.

Ajulutsikael's avatar

I’ve been bi since senior year in high school. I’m 28 now and only my ex boyfriends and my current one knew about this. Of course I’ve never had a chance to be with any girls as of yet, but I’m still very much attracted to them. The girls where I lived most of my life aren’t my type and I’ve only encountered 2 that I really fell for, but I didn’t know the sexuality of the last one. I’m less confident around girls than I am guys.

Kardamom's avatar

There is no need, at this time, to tell your mom or any of your friends unless you want to. If you and Melanie are going to start experimenting with dating and sex, let Melanie know that you want to try out this new way of being for awhile, until you feel more comfortable (and knowledgeable) about it before you let anyone else know, and hope that she respects your privacy. Does Melanie’s mom know that she is bi-sexual? If she does, and she’s OK with it, you might want to talk to her mom a little bit too.

Then check out PLGAG’s site (Parents, Families and Friends of Gays and Lesbians) to help you learn more about being bi-sexual or gay, and learn how to succesfully “come out” when and if you are ready to.

incendiary_dan's avatar

Remember to give youself time to adjust to that. I imagine it’s quite a change, cognitively and in terms of identity.

King_Pariah's avatar

First off take your time, as with what @WillWorkForChocolate said, do what feels right to you, depending on how your relationship blooms with your new found girlfriend, it may be best to eventually reveal to your family the truth about you. This is coming from some one who is “bicky” (bi but extremely picky).

And I would also like to say, Bad @FutureMemory, go take your debaucheries elsewhere… but yeah thanks for the link @WillWorkForChocolate!

sinscriven's avatar

You shouldn’t worry about trying to put a label on your sexuality at this point. Just relax, enjoy, and explore this new experience. In time you will learn more about yourself and understand yourself and who you are and that’s always a good thing.

Your sexuality is on a need to know basis, you shouldn’t feel compelled to tell anyone anything. You (probably) wouldn’t go up to your mom and tell her “hey mom, I love penis!” so don’t feel like you need to tell her about this either—especially since she wouldn’t be accepting.

BRB cold shower.

Uberwench's avatar

Regarding the situation with your mom: you don’t have to come out to her right away. Feel comfortable with yourself before trying to feel comfortable with others.

Regarding the sex: ask her. Experiment with things. Try doing things you liked when she did them to you. Look up at her playfully and say “like that?” and then do something else and say “or like that?” Women tend to be more complicated in bed than men because they don’t have an obvious on/off switch, so take your time and explore. She’ll probably think it’s fun as long as you treat it like a game.

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