[NSFW] What did your first view of images of human reproductive activity make you feel insecure about?

Warning: this question is not for the squeamish. Gory details and a willingness to disclose possibly uncomfortable things required.

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Maybe some of you are perfectly beautiful and are the sexiest lovers alive. Maybe you actually act in porn films. This question is not for you. The rest of us aren’t that beautiful and sexy and we don’t act in porn.

When I first saw pornographic images (stills), it looked to me as if all the men had humongous gobs of cum. I don’t produce nearly that much. Not only that, but mine isn’t the color or consistency of what I saw in the pictures. And of course, all the men seemed to have cocks at least a foot long.

Of course, I thought there was something defective with me; with my cum; with my cock. I wondered if I’d be able to have children (which was the case, although not for that reason).

What was your reaction the first time you saw porn? Did you think you were doing something wrong? Did you think there was something wrong with you? What were those things?

For bonus points: what did you learn from porn that turned out to be wrong?