Interested in being a mortician?

ok this is a dumb question and I will feel to stupid to call up funeral homes to ask this question. I am just a 33 y.o. woman with no college background, but have been fascinated with death since I was around eleven. I watch autopsies on the web, but I know its not the same as being right there. Do you think the morticians would let me watch? I just really don’t want to go to school to find out I wasted thousands of dollars cuz I can’t handle the smell, sounds, and all bodies are not pretty. If I could just sit a couple feet out of their way and see if I could handle it.