Is it possible I have an actual phobia of cockroaches and other insects?

I just drove 18 hours from NJ to MS, and I need to take a shower, but these temporary barracks I’m in have roaches. There’s one in my shower and I can’t even gather the courage to kill it.

This is the third one I saw and it’s freaking me out. I even walked past one in the hallway and it started running towards me.

I get shaky and twitchy when I see them and I don’t know what to do. I was going to pay someone to kill it and get it out of my room.

What is wrong with me? I really want to shower.