Do you ever mentally perseverate on something catty? (A lot more inside)

I don’t know what it is about a series of thoughts I have been having lately that seems to stay stirred up (which, in my experience, means there is something deeper and more meaningful in the thoughts). It is a very catty brain loop that doesn’t reveal anything good about my character (and that’s probably a large part of why it bothers me).

I am no great beauty (which may or may not have any bearing on the situation). There is a guy at work whom I think handsome (I am a lesbian and not interested in him in any kind of romantic way), and the other day he was talking with another woman at work. I have seen her in the halls, but had never been introduced to her. He then does the introductions and, it turns out, the woman is his wife. She has certain physical characteristics that I personally find unattractive.

Maybe I am just kind of mentally staring at her, but this particular physical feature keeps coming up and sticking in my head. I started to journal about it and realized I would rather ask Fluther and get input from real human beings (rather than continuing to discuss it only with myself and remaining stuck in the tape loop).

Have you ever mentally stared at some physical feature of another person that you found unattractive? Did it bother you? I almost feel like I am betraying my friendship with him by thinking (privately) that his wife is unattractive.