Are you dead?

I feel like I’m following societies guidelines and not doing what I love. I feel like I need instant gratification day by day just to keep going. I know it’s pitiful and quite sad (at least that’s how I perceive what people might think of what I feel) I know in my heart if I could just pursue what I really wanted to do as a career I would feel alive again.

Question: Are you dead like me? Are you just, “taking it” day by day?

I feel dead, zombie like.