(NSFW) Is there a word for me?

So I was just reading a discussion online, a guy was explaining that he can’t have sex due to a medical condition, and the group consensus seemed to be that that would be a complete nightmare and some people even said they wouldn’t feel a desire to go on living if they were in that situation. And I found myself thinking about how that would obviously be unfortunate, but the thought of it doesn’t fill me with fear or sadness. I feel like I would be just fine.

And then I got to wondering about myself. I don’t worry too much about labels or anything, but I feel like I may not have a normal sex drive. I enjoy sex when I have it, but I don’t seek it out. I’m never the one to initiate with my boyfriend. In fact, usually when he asks, my initial internal reaction is fairly indifferent. Once we get going, I always enjoy myself, but I also don’t have any desire for it to last a very long time, either.

I don’t think I’m asexual, but it’s weird. Stupidly enough, I can get excited over a sexy scene in a book or movie, but I don’t really get excited over the prospect of having real sex. It’s not my boyfriend either. I do find him attractive, and furthermore I don’t find it terribly exciting to imagine being propositioned by the sexiest man alive, either.

It doesn’t really bother me, it’s just kind of weird and has me wondering. Can anyone relate? Is there a name for this?

PS: Hi jellies, miss you! My classes are a bear this term and I won’t be around much until the summer.