How long did it take you to recover from past relationships? It's been so long and still don't feel like my old self.

A part of me really wants nothing to do with women: I have to meet one, then I have to hope there’s chemistry, and then I have to do the whole dating thing all over again: getting to know them etc. and then after all that, I have to either enter the serious relationship phase or end it and do it all over again?

Like is this just how it is for people who didn’t get lucky and find someone good enough right off the bat?

It’s nothing against women, because I know I can find one, but I feel like I don’t have the energy to build another relationship, but I also don’t want to just be alone and shy for years and years and regret not getting out there while I’m young.

I just feel so defeated and don’t know what I want I guess. It sucks.