I don't want to die but I hate living, what to do?

It’s OK if this post will be removed by moderators but I hope it could stay at least for a while.

I’ve had a couple of rough weeks. In fact my entire life has been a rough ride. I’ve done wrong and I’ve done right. I’m a failure as an adult when I compare myself to others in my age.

It’s deeper and more personal than this.

I’ve been the last weeks outside emergency rooms for psychology help, but never went inside.

I like to think of this as a first step towards something I don’t know.

Since this is “only details”, I won’t give more information. If you would like to know more feel free to ask me here or in pm.

Perhaps you can be my therapy.

Love from Sweden!