Need urgent help with medication at GBL withdrawal?

Hey everyone I hope you can help me with my withdrawal from GBL (liquid form of BHD). I started taking it 3 years ago because of social phobia (especially at school) and tremor (if I had to speak in public for example) the last 6 months I was taking daily 2–3ml every 3rd hour. Few days ago I started the withdrawal with kindly help of my girlfriend who noticed every dose and time

We started few days ago at 10am I took my last dose GBL 1:30pm I started with 20mg Valium at 3pm strong tremor, though. 4pm additional 10mg Valium+ 20mg Oxazepam 5pm more 10mg valium. Nevertheless I wasn’t able to sleep the whole night so i took 1 Zopiclone at 7am and 20mg more at 9am. 3h later the tremor began again 1h later i took 500mg magnesium and 2 valeriana. At 3pm i drank ½ bottle wine a bit later the rest of it and i finally fell asleep but only 3 hours.

At night i drank another bottle and slept 4 hours. Next day 2pm I had still withdrawal symptoms and pressure in my head and the whole body (probably because the benzo effects stopped). A friend brought me tramadol drops 100ml. 5pm I take 40 drops but still headache so again 40 drops because I wanted to sleep but it doesn’t help I just puke. Somehow I ate a piece of pizza and took 40 drops again. 11pm another 30 drops but still tremor. The night was horrific tremor and sweating at 2am i took 2 elavil still wasn’t able to eat and puked again. 3am again 30 drops tramadol still tremor my head felt like a sponge I wasn’t able to sleep so again 20 drops at 6am. I had anxiety , everytime I closed my eyes to sleep i saw weird things and only by laying the tremble stopped.

At 8am only puked liquid almost no eat. Everytime I close my eyes I see grimaces and shi* like that. So my GF gave me Melperone but It didn’t help either. At 3pm I could not longer stand this so we went to the hospital but they only wanted to take me stationary but I didn’t agree because last time I was fixed and was fully pumped with Haldol which was terrible so I went home (they didn’t agree to give me some benzo’s either).

At 6pm last sleep was 84h ago I was close to Delirium so I took 2ml GBL again at 7pm but even this didn’t help so 3ml more but still terrible optics by eye closing at 8pm (almost 92h without sleep) I fell asleep but only for 3 hours. Then I woke up with strong headache and tremor. Then again 3×2ml every 2nd hour till now and I don’t feel better I don’t know what to do please help me.

If I only would have a strong benzo like rohypnol that kick me to sleep but no doc give it to me. I can’t to the hospital I have to work in 2 days. Sorry for my bad englisch I’m living in europe I am asking here because noone in my local area is wiling to help me especially not at this time.

I only want to feel good :(