Is anyone else having problems mourning Auggie?

Asked by Kardamom (33284) January 13th, 2019 from iPhone

Fluther for me has always been completely separated, and private, and hidden, from my friends in real life. I want it to remain that way. Otherwise, I can’t answer questions completely honestly.

I need the anonymity. Not from Fluther members, because if you have read my Qs and As, you all know where I stand.

But Auggie leaving us has sucker punched me in a way that I can’t describe. Obviously me, and everyone on this site (and the others where we all gather) is probably still reeling from the blow. This site is not known (and will never be known) to people IRL, lest I have to leave.

But because of our (or at least mine) anonymity, my friends and family IRL, probably wonder what is wrong with me, because I’m pretty sure I’m not myself, and I can’t/won’t say.

Please don’t suggest that I just tell everyone, and share this site. I decided in 2010, when I joined this site, that I could not be useful or effective if I shared all of this with everyone.

I realize that some of you are completely happy and comfortable mingling this world with your “regular” world, but some of us need to keep our worlds separate.

I am just feeling the pain of a huge loss, while at the same time, trying to keep my shit together.

I’m just wondering how some of the rest of you are coping with this loss.