I don't understand what is going on with my teacher, does she have any sexual feelings towards me?

I am a 17 year old boy currently in 11th grade in high school. So I have this really hot English teacher and I can’t stop thinking about her, and all these weird events keep happening between us, but I can’t tell if it means something or its just my feelings that are altering my thoughts.
So back in December, this teacher saw that I looked sad in class. She came up to me and asked if I wanted to talk after school. I said ok and I came by at the end of the day to talk. We ended up talking for 2 hours and 30 minutes about personal things. I told her about my drug habits and how I smoke weed very often. I even told her the times I have been high in front of her and in her class. I told her about my family problems and whats on my mind. She responded with her own thoughts and revealed to me that she still smokes weed and that she went through very similar experiences in her childhood. She said that everything said in the room would stay in the room. That week she told me that she talked to her husband about me and that he said not to be friends with students but she was ok with it. So she told me she was going to stop smoking weed all of winter for me. Then she said she was going to see a therapist that afternoon. The next day she told me that she doesn’t think we should continue talking about drugs but we can about other topics regarding my family and personal problems. I felt sad so the next week I told her how much trust I have in her, and how it would only be beneficial if we could continue having the talks. She said yes. She told me that she spoke to her therapist about me… Then I told her my SAT scores were bad so she offered to help tutor me in the math section. I also come in to volunteer for her. It was all going good from there, I talked to her about my juul addiction too and how I wanted to stop. Her beauty motivated me. One other day I was in her room with her and I got a text that my cat died. I began crying and she cried with me too, as we shared an intimate moment.
Then I made a huge mistake. I sent her an email with questions and at the end I put, “I really really messed up on Tuesday”. If the school got access to this email they could have questioned her and she could have lost her job. It was supposed to be private but I made physical evidence of it. The next day she said that we couldn’t talk about the drugs anymore “because it would be good for the both of us”. She told me she talked to the guidance counselor so that I could go talk to her about other family issues.
After that it was slightly awkward for a few weeks. Eventually I started coming to her after school for the SAT help and volunteering to help her grade. We got intimate in a different way. She told me about her family, childhood and her interests. She showed me in google maps satellite the block that she lived on. I told her to get Citibike and a week later she told me that she got an annual membership. I told her about this book I think she should read on psychology. Inside I had notes written down and lines underlined. She read it in a couple days and had written her own notes and highlighted other sentences in the text. She remembered my birthday and everything.
Sorry this is long, its almost over promise.
Now the only reason I am doubtful is because I am usually the one who has to engage in our communication. Inside class we often make quick eye contact and look away but we don’t communicate much. At the end of class I usually ask if I can come in after school the next day and she says ok with a smile. And when I come after school she is talkative and happy to see me. But I am always the one who has to engage in those meetings. She is also talkative with other students and laughs with them but nothing as personal as this.
Weve walked to the train multiple times together. We even citibiked together one day to her train stop. One Friday night we engaged in 18 emails sent back and forth about this application I was filling out. I just feel like I might be forcing it or she is just doing all of this to be nice. Am I wrong to be making these assumptions? I don’t understand what is going on and it is blurring my mind.