Feeling stuck and not sure what I want...

What’s up everyone,

Thank you in advance to anyone who took the time to read my thread and respond. I’ll be honest when I say this; I am not really sure how to start so bare with me. Let me first start off by introducing myself and explaining how I got to where I am at. I am a 25-year-old male who moved from New York to the state of Georgia about 6–7 years ago. When I graduated high school in the year 2012 I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. All I knew at that time was my father retired from the NYPD and we ended up deciding to move to Georgia to take care of my Grandparents who are my father’s mother and dad. When we moved to Georgia I landed a job as a mechanic and god bless it, I hated every second of it and I mean that will all respect. That career was just not for me. This led me to land another job at a grocery store as a grocery stocker. When I landed this job at the age of 22, I was not planning on stay there and I was constantly looking up careers that appealed to me and I have to say this next choice was the “wisest” of them all. I came across Firefighter and say that they work 24 on and 48 off. When I say that I jumped on it so quickly. I was looking at it as a good career with plenty of time to be off and see family if needed. The requirement for me to get on with a department was to attain my fire certifications and achieve an EMT license. Well, I did such that. I enrolled in a community college and attained my Fire/Hazmat certifications and then shortly after my EMT license. I was still 22 at the time and I applied to a few Fire departments. After about maybe less than a month I landed a job with one makes roughly 33–34,000 annually. I thought at the time I hit the jackpot because I was young, dumb and naive. Well, I did not take long until I realized that salary was nothing to brag about and I need to make more money to live comfortably and maybe one day supply for a family without having to work some much that I barely see them. I decided about one year into working at the Fire Department that I wanted to get my nursing because I was actually enjoying the medical side working as an EMT more than I did as a firefighter. Well halfway through knocking out some of my Pre-Reqs the fire department found out I was attending college for nursing and decided to fire me. I lost the fire department job and ended up failing microbiology with a D that semester due to me losing the job and my Grandpa also dying of Alzheimer’s. I am not trying to make excuses but that semester was not good to me and I ended up showing it with a D. All my other classes like A&P 1 & 2 ended up getting a B in and a few A’s in other courses.

Shortly after prior to being getting ready to retake micro my parents decided they wanted to move to PA which I had no issues with at all. I had to put my nursing on hold and find a full-time job since I was working part-time. I landed a job back on with the fire department and shortly after I enrolled in a paramedic program. I am still in the program and we do not graduate until February 2020. I will be 26. Even though I love the paramedic and medical side. I am honestly getting tired of working 48’s just to make ends meet. I am 26 years old and I do not want to be working like a dog when I am in my 40’s. I want to be successful but I just do not know where to go. There is a paramedic to RN bridge programs but I am worried due to my failing micro I will not be accepted into many programs. On top of that when I attained my ADN, my goal was to enroll straight into a BSN program and then NP. With me being 26 when I graduate paramedic school and having to retake my science courses because they lapse after five years, I might not get into a nursing program until I am maybe 30 and then I might not get into an NP program until I am close to 40 which to me seems like I wasted a lot of my life and time doing stupid crap when I was younger. I wish I could slap my old self and know when I turned eighteen to start focusing on my future.

The issue I am running into now is not sure what I really want… Do I still want to bridge to my RN which is still a very tough route and then get my NP or maybe look into other career fields that may be a bit easier to attain while having the ability to work full-time? Here is a list I was looking at.

1. Biomedical Engineering
2. Software Developers
3. Aerospace Engineers
4. Electrical Engineers
5. Physician Assistant (Love this career but hate how much debt it will cost for schooling)
6. Medical Lab Techs
7. Nuclear Medicine Techs
8. Dietitians & Nutritionists
9. Hydrologists

I know these careers seem all over the place but I am kinda at a loss, to be honest with you all. I would love to be able to find a career that I can work while attaining through online programs but the majority nowadays do not allow which I can understand why. The reason for this thread is because I was wondering if anyone else was in a similar position as me and maybe had any advice? Again thank you in advance for taking the time!