General Question

Yellowdog's avatar

How can I cope with seasonal depression / anxiety / Post Traumatic Stress Disorder ?

Asked by Yellowdog (10908points) October 4th, 2019

In spite of other problems I’ve mentioned, I was diagnosed with PTSD some years ago. PTSD or not, memories and emotions can be overwhelming when triggered,

As much as I hate the heat and humidity and have problems coping with it, a sudden drop in temps to about 60 f (16 c) has triggered a painful memory / some emotions so intense that I sit here totally dysfunctional and scared. I just keep swallowing hard,

This is not related to being a victim of violent crime which got me permanently injured and on disability—except to say that I don’t think my SS disability will last forever. The memory is related to when my girlfriend became homeless, and I, who was living with my parents due to being unable to work because of the aforementioned gunshot injury—was struggling to provide for her.

My mental state isn’t that good either—I was on Adderall for many years due to ADHD but gave it up when I was unable to work (again, due to the gunshot injury), since I didn’t need the focus / concentration abilities), Now that I might LIKE to try work again, I am disorganized, live in perpetual daydreams or in the past, can’t keep up with things, and a pretty damn slow learner. None of the healthcare I am assigned to will prescribe Adderall, even though it worked wonders for me, being able to really “see” what I was looking at or working with, and desire to organize my chaos.

I am not sure I’d be able to work due to the ADHD being more intense without the medication. I’m afraid of getting OFF disability because of the health benefits and income, although even THAT income is not enough to make ends meet. And I may not be able to get disability again anyway when it is up. So I dread the future, when life slips back into chaos and I have no means of support.

I am able to drive and help my aging parents, who are about 80 and both with failing health. I share an apartment with my girlfriend but cannot spend much time with her because of the needs of my parents. She is in some ways worse off than me, because she has severe depression, living on disability, without a car.

So, where can I go from here, and how do I cope with such intense anxiety, grief, and fear?

Observing members: 0 Composing members: 0

7 Answers

janbb's avatar

Long term therapy would be your best answer, I would think.

seawulf575's avatar

Therapy would probably help. But start by setting little goals. Make a small list of things you want to accomplish today, tomorrow, the next day. Don’t try mapping out the entire future…do it in small bites…one or two things in a day to start with. Write these things down and work with your girlfriend to work them together. Exercise more. Take walks, ride a bike, whatever. Again…do it with your girlfriend and make it one of your goals. You two can be each others’ coach and cheer squad.
Sometimes you have to force yourself to do things when you feel like just sitting there. Sitting there is a way to sink down further. You don’t accomplish anything, you feel more down because of it….it is a spiral.

Dutchess_lll's avatar

I agree with @janbbb. All of this is really beyond our ken. @seawulf575‘s suggestions seemed sound.
Do you have the means to seek counseling?

snowberry's avatar

It’s possible to effectively manage ADHD with physical exercise, diet and supplements.

You said in a previous question that vitamins helped you stave off depression, but you hate the taste. You have a choice. Either take the vitamins or find a doctor who will prescribe what you want.

I have a similar dilemma. I choose supplements.

snowberry's avatar

You’ll either need to find doctor for prescriptions or a doctor to help you manage your health with supplements .

Response moderated (Spam)
Dutchess_lll's avatar

So you just feel the same way every one else feels but you need drug help for it?

Answer this question




to answer.

This question is in the General Section. Responses must be helpful and on-topic.

Your answer will be saved while you login or join.

Have a question? Ask Fluther!

What do you know more about?
Knowledge Networking @ Fluther