Why would I cry leaving a job I hated?

I’ve mentioned previously on here how I’ve been looking for a new job since it was a dead end job.

Thursday, my boss and his boss met with me on Zoom… I knew why instantly. I was fine but as I heard the words they had to eliminate my position, I started bawling! I knew it was nothing personal, they even started to cry a little! I took myself off video and muted myself because I started hyperventilating a little. I was so surprised by my reaction, I never thought I would react this way!! I have several months of savings and I have a side business, I’m marketable…so I don’t know why I took it so hard at that moment!

I knew lay offs were possible but I thought it was highly unlikely since we were already so short staffed! I told my coworkers and they were sad. I ran into my
co-worker who mentored me for all these years and she actually wanted to hug me and teared up. She said things are going downhill, she doesn’t know how they’re going to get through the heavy workload, so many people were let go that were shocking.

I am a little mad I didn’t take the voluntary leave that would give pay and benefits for an extra four months…but I had to be stupid because I feared the job market. Now it’s all ending this month.