A question about people's anxiety ...

I suffer greatly from anxiety, if anyone has seen any of my questions, you’d agree, i’ve had all blood tests done, neurological exams with out the brain scan, though i have 5 forms from various doctors for recommendations if i want one, i’m now living in nyc, and so far the subways have ruined my life, i get on one, to get off it on the next stop, hop on the other one etc etc, if it slows down between stations I totally freak out.
I can’t keep living like this, it’s actually now driving me totally insane.
No one around me actually understand anxiety, my partner is wonderful but doesn’t quite get it and i wish i could just get over it and I’m trying i’ve had it now for 10 years, the first year i got it I never left the house… i havn’t had medication for it…. my question is really for people that suffer anxiety… do you understand what i’m going through, do you have any tricks that might help me?
I feel like i’m about to have mental breakdown at any stage, my brain feels weird, I get these weird sensations in my body and i think my doctor is already over me… actually I“m over me right now…. any amazing fixes outside of drugs?! I“m open to anything right now, even howling at the full moon outside a duane reade…..