What kind of questions do you ask yourself about yourself that you really don't have an answer for?

I hate the idea of “issues,” but I guess this is about things you think about yourself that you are really concerned about and have tried to understand, but can’t. This isn’t about therapy, because a lot of therapists don’t care about understanding. They just care about people changing. So if you are an action-oriented person, this isn’t for you. This is for true navel-gazers.

One of my questions that I work on trying to figure out is why I have this tendency to tear myself down. I’ve been over and over it in therapy and somehow it keeps coming back and even though I recognize I’m doing it, I can’t stop it.

I can stop the behavior. When I see myself thinking that, I can keep it from appearing in my speech. What I don’t seem to be able to do is to stop the thought. I think I also forget to just let the thought be, without paying it much attention. It’s a thought that keeps on grabbing me even knowing I should try to let it go. It makes me feel like I want to think that (tear myself down), which raises a whole host of other issues.

I need to go have lunch.