My girlfriend/life partner wants time and space and just to be friends right now. How do I get through this and hobbies are not my answer?

My girlfriend/life partner wants time and space and just to be friends right now. I just lost my grandma, my mom kicked me out of the family and I am done with her and my dad too. Now I have nothing and I chose her over my family because my family chose others over me. How do I get through this and hobbies are not my answer?

My mom said something she can’t take back about my girl. I am tired of her attacking me and hurting me and my girl, so I chose my girl over my family (they did it to me) and when I got home, she left me. She is so tired of going through the same stuff and so am I – finally I am done and now she left? I have nothing at all now. I hurt so bad. I have to give time and space and act fine in front of her or I’ll push her away. She says she doesn’t know what the future holds, but right now she just wants to be friends and I don’t do that. If someone can leave me, they don’t deserve my friendship. I can’t see her with someone else and I just want her. It hurts so bad!