Do you think it is a bad thing to have moles?

So, I could make a new account and ask this question, but I don’t want to bother with having more than one account on this website… so, please, please don’t judge me too harshly for asking this. Thanks!

If my words here have the potential to disgust you given the subject, you might want to stop reading this description….

This is really hard to ask, but where should I start? Okay, I’ll just write my feelings down and see where this goes.

I am a very insecure person and have been for a long time. If someone thinks I am full of myself, he or she is completely mistaken.

I don’t feel like I’m good enough… and I don’t feel like my appearance is up to par with what it could be.

I am afraid to get a job until I have a private issue dealt with, which will (hopefully) be next month.

You see, well… have you ever felt unlucky about something you felt cursed with? (Ugh, this is so hard to write and hard to say…)

I have and I do. I feel like I’m cursed with moles. I feel like I’m judged for having them – like I’m a disgusting person for having them, even though it’s not my fault…

I wonder if I didn’t go in the sun this much or that much, if I would be so lucky to have pure skin like some other people seem to? Everybody else’s body seems so much better to me because of this.

One that bothers me the most is on the bottom of the left side of my chin…. and I’ve received plenty of criticism for it thanks to people who felt the need to throw out insensitive comments to me that made me feel like I’m a horrible person. This is one I want to get removed most of all.

I’ve been told I am thinking too much into this by my Dad… that people don’t really care… but how does he know? He hasn’t lived my life. He hasn’t been on the receiving end of comments directed my way… hurtful songs… or hurtful words directed at me.

I feel like this is my weakness and that if I don’t get rid of the ones that bring me the most pain, I will never get the confidence I need.

I still hear the voices, treating me like I’m a disgusting and horrible person, and I just can’t get them out of my head, no matter how much I try.

I wear a band-aid over it just to avoid the rude comments… and if people ask me what the band-aid is for, I don’t usually tell them. It’s so much easier to deal with them assuming I’m hiding a hickey or something than to tell them the truth… most of the time.

I know this is long, so I understand if you don’t want to read it… but at the same time, I think it’s important for it to be left as it is so that you can understand better what I’m asking and my feelings about it (even if you think I am over-thinking things and overreacting).