Why do I feel like I was mentally stronger when back then when I was reading the Bible?

Is it because I was being directed? These days I like to fact check everything, in logical order. Nothing wrong with that, it’s just I feel like with that method, feeling definite is not enough. I can’t explain it but it’s similar to feeling like a know-it-all versus humbly learning about something.

Do you catch my drift? How can I be humble again and open minded with out trying to find the definite answers of things? Journalism has taught me to dig deep, I used just follow my heart with answers.