Those with BPD. How do you cope on seriously bad days?

Those that suffer with BPD, how do you find the strength to even want to see another day?

Today is a really tough day for me. Ive burst into tears I don’t know how many times, I’ve stood in front of the mirror and cursed myself for being the way I am. I’ve self harmed. I’m not feeling suicidal to the point of attempting. I’m just hating myself, my life, the fact that I’m this messed up, the fact that I’m so useless that I have to feel this way.

I don’t want to be like this. I certainly don’t want these f$€¥ed up racing thoughts that just won’t go away.

How do I get through?