Is my story sad or more pathetic?

I was diagnosed with BDD and Schizo-affective Disorder. I actually spent 3 years alone in my grandmas guest room without leaving it. I came from a very abusive and neglectful home. Once my family tried to get me to leave and I flipped out and they called the police and I got charged with 2 counts of Terroristic Threatening and spent the next 2 years in jail and boot camp. I now have depression and want to die because I feel like my life has been terrible. I am only 28 years old too.