(NSFW) Why do or don't you need physical intimacy from your partner?

My boyfriend and I are having issues lately because sex is more important in a relationship to him than it is to me.

To be fair, I am rarely ever in the mood and he is very patient with me. I just feel like sex is not for me.

I don’t know how much longer this can last and that scares me because I really love him and I know he really loves me.

I just want to understand more and I wish we were more compatible. We are perfect in so many ways for each other, but our sex life needs improvement.

I grew up in a home where sex before marriage is looked down on. He didn’t. I’ve been sexually assaulted by a previous partner. He’s never been sexually assaulted. The idea of penetration scares me. I think these things may have to do with our issues, so that’s why I’m bringing them up.

Please help if you can. And please answer my above question if you feel comfortable enough to do so. Thanks!