Do you think I deal with big impacting situations strangely?

Today my grandmother died and my whole family and close friends are taking it badly, but I am going on as if life was normal. Even with the people who have passed in earlier years had no affect on my emotions. Can you guys and girls help me on this? Also I have heard some rumors about suppressed emotions, can anyone tell me if these are true or not? Btw, feel free to ask more questions, I REALLY want to know what’s up.