Will I be forever depressed because of my insecurity?

I don’t like the way I look. I hate my nose way too much. I can say I have mild depression because of it. I have denied so many opportunities because I felt insecure. I wake up feeling sad, go to bed feeling sad and all the time I am thinking about my nose. I had a bad surgery done on my nose by the way and that adds a great deal to it because I was hoping that finally my nose will be fixed so I can live my life in a more confident way. I was wrong and unlucky!

I just don’t want to go to a doctor because they don’t help me at all. I saw some before and I always end up in the same place: I can’t stand living in my body. I am taking prozac but it is not really helping me. I know what it feels like to have the priviledges of being beautiful than the average, and I feel like I need that in my life.

Am I a helpless case? I will get my nose fixed in June but at the same time I feel like it may go wrong again and I may get into serious depression. Am I doomed to forever insecurity and sadness? I don’t want to live like this anymore. I am melancholic 24/7.