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I feel so alone. What do I do?

Asked by laura98 (156 points ) 1 month ago

So since summer has officially started for me I feel relieved that the work load is officially dumped for awhile and I have some free time. However, now that I have a load of time to do all the things I wanted to do but couldn’t when I was overworked and stressed out with school I find myself incredibly lonely. To be incredibly honest, I don’t really have many friends. I’ve tried to make some, but for some reason it never works out. I have my one friend, but she is always busy with sports and she always joins a ton of travel teams during the summer and goes on vacation so I know I won’t be seeing much of her at all.

However, there is this boy I’m really into and honestly it wouldn’t matter to me if he didn’t like me back, being his friend would be super great honestly and I would immensely enjoy his company. He helped tutor me in math and I invited him to get ice cream with me and just simple gestures of friendship occasionally. Yet, once I finished for the year I hadn’t really heard from him or seen him for awhile. He is kind of a shy kid and I really just want to stress to him that I want to be friends and that I’m totally shy and awkward too, but without coming on too strong. I feel like I’ve been trying to show him I want to be friends outside of tutoring by inviting him places and such. One time he invited me to tag along to this ice cream place with his family, but it was after I invited him to go somewhere ( that really doesn’t count I guess?). Anyway, my Dad is a deacon and the kid I like works at the church. So one day I asked my dad if he would take me to this book store after mass,etc. It ended up that my dad asked the kid I liked to tag along with us because he knew I was feeling down about not hearing from him.

I had a great night with him and we talked and ate and made perverted jokes and he even caught me staring at him ( Awkward, I know) and gave me a little smile that made my heart melt. After that I mustered up the courage to ask him if he felt like watching a movie with me. He said yes and we sat on both of my couches in my living room and watched a flick.

I’m just worried since he is such a shy person he won’t ever text me or ask me to do anything with him. I have so much fun with him and he makes me feel so happy despite my loneliness. I know you have to sometimes work hard with people to gain a friendship, but I’ve tried so hard already and there seems to have only been a little breakthrough. What can I do to maybe get him to reciprocate?

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